Looking Up

I spent the weekend talking about issues. I have come up with a main plan and several back-ups to deal with problems. I even had my first session with a therapist (over the phone). It feels good address some of the things that are bothering me.

Plus, I think I am finally coming out of the first trimester because I actually have energy. Saturday was dedicated to cleaning. Lexi “helped.” Between working, taking care of Lexi, and being exhausted, I had let things slip. I was only doing the bare minimum for a month and it really showed.

So, it is Monday but I am moving forward and have a clean apartment.

Points in Life

There are points in life when the stress is just too much. At times everything compounds and presses down on me to the point that I have difficulty breathing. I want to scream because I feel trapped by the situation and trapped because it is something that is better not mentioned. For a person that feels like I am very open, I realize there are huge parts in my life that require me to bite my tongue and smile at least for the time being.

I am taking deep breaths and doing my best to keep myself at a healthy less stress level. It isn’t good for me or the baby or anyone else. I keep telling myself that life has a way of working itself out and eventually being better. While I believe that, I just see the problems staring back at me.