Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

I posted my last entry on my Artemis-Gaia Blog today. From now on, it is Freckle Face Girl all the way. I still have some issues with the design and have not proof read the 100 Tid Bits About Me, but I will get to it. By the way, blogging is addictive.

Yummy Yummy for Her Tummy

For the past 2 weeks, Lexi has been staring at us eating and begging for real food. It was obvious that she was ready for the next step. So, she had her first meal tonight and she loved every bite of it. Even though she was trying to lick the food rather than eat it, she continually begged for more. Rice cereal was a hit.

Saturday Fun with the Clan

On Saturday, we headed up to Port St. Lucie (PSL) to see Steve's parents and visiting relatives. Lexi got to meet her Great Aunt Snookie & Great Granny Lou. They are so fun to listen to. Snookie is just as entertaining as Steve's dad. Actually, I think they feed off each other. Lexi just adores her Granddad, so you can imagine the joy she got from both of them. Snookie tried to teach her to blow and vibrate her lips, but Lexi just laughed and laughed whenever she showed her. Later in the day, they had Lexi lay on a blanket. They were trying to see her roll over and even made bets. Of course, Lexi was very content just laying there soaking up all the attention.

It is becoming apparent during our visits that Steve's parents are excited to see how much Lexi has grown and changed. On the flip side, we see how much his mother has deteriorated. She is skinnier than ever and sleeping more often. She speaks and walks slower each time. The pain is also bothering her a lot more. During this trip, she even had a vomiting episode. It is difficult to watch. Actually, Paige had flashbacks of our dad.

4 Month Doctor Appointment

Lexi had her 4 month old doctor appointment yesterday. I brought her & Paige to the office, so that we could go in the afternoon from there. It was nice to have Lexi near, but Paige had a hard time keeping her happy. Plus, I think Paige was a bit bored.

As for the appointment, Lexi is now 14 lbs 8 oz & 25.5" long. I believe that is exactly the same size that her cousin Camille was at her 4 month old check up. So far, Lexi has been much better with these shots than the last ones. This nurse didn't jab her as hard. She screamed of course, but only for a short while. In fact, she had stopped before we left the doctor's office. She even managed a few smiles. It looks like we will not have a week of extreme crabbiness. Thank goodness. Now, I am really looking forward to the three day weekend and relatives.

Better Day

Lexi seems to be getting use to the work situation. I went home for lunch today & she had just fallen asleep. I held her for a minute & then put her in her crib. I finally got back to the office within the allotted lunch break. Now, Paige is probably getting bored, especially since she doesn't have a car. Her day consists of several walks with Lexi in the front pack, playing on the internet, watching television and dvds, and of course playing with Lexi. Come to think of it, I wish I had a job like that.

Traumatic Hissy Fits

I came home yesterday to a frazzled sister. She told me that little Lexi had slept most of the day, but that was only because she had screamed herself to sleep. My sister, Paige, was concerned that Lexi didn't like her. Right then, I knew that both of them had a rough day. I explained to my sister that Lexi was just going through a transition and would hopefully adjust soon. Now, I feel really bad that she is scheduled to get her shots this week. She will probably be getting use to it right as that trauma makes everything worse. So, I will continue to feel sad and sorry for Lexi & Paige.

Back at Work

As you all probably know (from my many sobbing complaints previously posted), it is back to work for me today. Besides missing Lexi horribly, I guess I am doing ok. She spit up on me right as I was about to leave this morning, which has to mean that she was making sure that I didn't miss out on everything. My sister told me that she slept most of the morning. Of course, I rushed home for lunch to see her. I got to spend a little time before rushing back. It warmed my heart to see that she was extremely excited to see me. My heart broke when she cried as I handed her back to my sister to leave. I ended up cuddling her for a few more minutes.

To be honest, there is a very small part of me that feels a little like things are returning to normal. Don't get me wrong, I would choose to be a SAHM any day of the week. What I am feeling is a weird realization that I am not pregnant anymore. It started with setting up my computer this morning. When I left in January, I unhooked my computer by myself. It was NOT easy with that big belly and my huge wood desk that is impossible to move. Climbing under my desk & on top of it trying to get all the cords situated reminded me of how much easier things are as a non-pregnant girl. (Ok, so I probably shouldn't have unhooked my computer in January, but I am a fiercely independent person.)

Basically today, I am feeling very sad when we are apart, excited for the moments I can see her, and strange about not being pregnant. You can be sure that I am looking forward to 5:30 pm, so I can rush home to be with her again. Hmm... maybe it is time to think about another maternity leave. Yeah right!

Update on MIL

Sorry I haven't updated on my mother-in-law's health status. Steve has talked to her a few times this week, but she didn't offer the information. He decided that he might not want to hear it, so he avoided asking her until I nagged him enough yesterday. Let me start by saying that the doctor told her it is now time to contact hospice, which means they are basically done fighting the cancer. They are going to do some radiation on the tumor in her pelvis, which is 4 inches in diameter, just to make her more comfortable. Her life expectancy depends on many unknowns, but hospice isn't usually in the picture until the last 6 months.

I am posting a few pictures of us on mother's day. Steve's mom went out on the boat with all of us for about 15 - 20 minutes. It is important to build up some happy moments/memories.